thanks to mommy haze who gave me this link about some nivea online contest which i just answered on one of my lull moments. as i did get the prize yi-ha! the funny thing is i couldn't access the website anymore when it was where i got to answer the promo quiz in the first place. if i remember well, we only had to submit a picture of a celebrity that we look up to and justify on what makes that celebrity impressionable. i sent a very much preggy photo of Heidi Klum for not only being a supermodel but a supermom and a super wifey to Seal as well. with that i got these!:
from their Summit office, i search the stores again for my ever elusive itim na balde hehehe...but to no avail still. so i boarded the bus and hopped off at the nepa Q mart and lo and behold there was an array of baldes in all colors and sizes and with black ones of course. and it was sold for only fifty pesos hahaha! so here it is finally!
and these are its bathmates
i also got a few rugs for 20 pesos a piece and a curtain set for 180 pesos. i'll definitely go back there for more of my houseware needs. yey!
i've gotten the bug once more. i've been sniffing and sneezing for a few days now and my head is just so heavy to carry around. if only i could take it off sometimes and leave it someplace for a while eh.
i blame it all on the heat and the dust and those endless trips to the malls for stuff for my little home. i've been to megamall twice, to shopwise and sm cubao. and sm city then walked all the way to trinoma only to find myself boarding the mrt to get me to ortigas megamall once more.
i've long been searching for a black balde hehehe.
why black? because i just got myself a black soapdish, small basin and a tabo. and i remember texting my sister to bring me a black towel set as well. hehe..sorry, i've pictured out what my bathroom's gonna look like so i can't just get a pail of any color and "destroy" the effect all together.
oh well, the excitement must have made so tired i had to rest a couple of days with my sniffles.
and while on this i got news that most of my products needed for our area promotions might be delayed meaning our trips will be delayed too.
yes, i've got some vested interest that i got really sad i might not be able to hit the beach (on a sidetrip) sooner than i planned.
haay, just the same, i still like to say see you real soon, bantayan!
I have always loved to blog and read about other people’s blogs not just from my own country but from other places as well. I was talking about it to a friend when he said I could actually earn from blogging too. Of course, with how economy has dwindled these days I can’t help but not pass up the chance of earning while enjoying what I do, blogging!
He led me to sign up with payperpost as this has been a proven and reliable site for earning through blogs. It allows me to post about a chosen blog advertising and inform more people about it. This is yet my first post and I am really excited and looking forward to composing and advertising for other people, making them read more about my blogposts and earning at the same time. How cool can that be?
I am really hoping that more and more people could sign up and earn as well. The earnings that I could get could help in alleviating my lifestyle by paying for my bills and other expenses. And slowly but surely it could help me upgrade my computer system as well for better uploads and faster internet services. I am truly looking forward to more good times ahead with payperpost. And I am so grateful for having signed up.
i was leafing through my old college files when i chanced upon this paper. it's actually some agreement between us girls, cherry, claudine, tina and ate tech against two guys kuya theo and kuya ac, all my orgmates from gabay betting on the then much talked about soon to be wedding of Kris Aquino and Philip Salvador. of course no wedding ever took place and we won our much sought after iced tea from the college caf.
those were the days haha!
What Marinela Means
You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!
You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.
You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.
You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.
and i mean big! for P110 this already has a mini pancake, scrambled/sunny side up egg, beef tapa and a hotdog plus a cup of rice and your choice of coffee or juice.
i'm having the pancakes and the eggs for breakfast and the rest for lunch.
oh by the way, it's from jollibee! just call 8-7000 for delivery. breakfast delivery is up to 11am only.
i'm no big fan of mariah thus i imagine the girls belting and screaming out this week. surprise of all surprises though, t'was the guys who actually did well. archuleta was good but cook and castro were my favorites most especially since they sang my better favored songs by mariah :p
i'm especially dedicating cook's video to my former abada housemate, kaye ursolino...siya naalala ko agad eh haha!
i've always been mercurial when i'm PMSing (sorry TMI, guys!), i could be ecstatic now and just downright depressed in a few moments.
i woke up feeling alright, i felt light and raring to work or watch a movie or just do about anything i want to do. i'm planning out things, i'm preparing my sched for the next months and i'm just so excited with finally being able to go where i want to go this summer. i was alright.
then while browsing through the different threads in pex, i chanced upon this thread and browsed through. and i realized i shouldn't have most especially after reading this poem:
Funeral Blues W.H Auden
Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone, Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone, Silence the pianos and with muffled drum Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead. Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves, Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West, My working week and my Sunday rest, My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song; I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now; put out every one, Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun, Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods; For nothing now can ever come to any good.
I first heard of this in the movie Four Weddings and a Funeral. I've somehow forgotten what the movie is all about but reading this poem once again just made me really, really sad. Because i happen to have used this in my journal years back when my dad passed away.
and i suddenly miss him so much.
and i remember it was his birthday last april 5 and i totally forgot about it.
i remember struggling too long for most of my college life blaming myself for being such a bad daughter. he was sick for a long, long time and i remember fleeing from reality for most of the time then. for i preferred immersing myself with activities in school and being with my friends rather than being by his side where he needed me most.
i practically grew up having him around. i used to sleep beside him as a kid. i used to wait for him after work for our daily walks till the sun sets. i used to wait up for him if only to report whoever kid fought with me that day no matter how trivial the fight was. i would already be crying even before i could tell him who and why i got hurt.
when he got sick, was in and out of the hospital, became bedridden for almost 10 years it was just my mom who took care of him. i went away for most of the time. i didn't want to see him sick and weak and unable to talk even. it broke my young heart seeing him just slowly slipping away.
when he passed away just right after my 18th birthday i was away from home. i wasn't able to go home that christmas break thus i wasn't even able to greet him that one last time.
a lot in me changed since then. i've always been so insecure. i've always felt so remorseful. and i never had any decent interest for any guy as i didn't really want to be close to anyone if only to see them leave once again.
it was only during my senior year, during my college retreat when i was finally processed by our spiritual director. all those years of blaming myself, of being sorry and regretful for not having been with him for a long time before he finally left was finally poured out. and i somehow made peace with him and myself.
but i still have these bouts once in a while.
there is always this fear of being left behind.
but i have learned to just appreciate, make the most of what i got and just be grateful for any wonderful relationships that come my way.
which reminds me of one other song which i find really beautiful but sad too. i'm just really hoping and praying that i won't ever have the need for these type of songs anymore:
Deep Inside of You Third Eye Blind
When we met, light was shed Thoughts free flow You said you've got something Deep inside of you
A wind chime voice sound Sway of your hips round rings true It goes deep inside of you
These secret garden beams Changed my life, so it seems A fall breeze blows outside I don't break stride, my thoughts are warm And they go deep inside of you Oh yeah
And I never felt alone, alright Oh oh, till I met you
Friends say I've changed I don't listen 'cuz I live to be Deep inside of you
Slide of her dress Shouts in darkness, I'm so alive I'm deep inside of you
You said, "boy make girl feel good" But still, deep inside Still
I've never felt alone Till I met you I'm alright on my own And then I met you And I'd know what to do If I just knew what's coming
I would change myself if I could I'd walk with my people if I could find them And I'd say that I'm sorry to you I'm sorry to you
And I don't want to call you But then I want to call you 'Cuz I don't want to crush you But I feel like crushing you, and it's true I took for granted you were with me I breathe by your looks and you look right through me
But we were broke and didn't know We were broke and didn't know We were broke and didn't know We were broke and didn't know
Something's gone, you withdraw And I'm not strong like before I was deep inside of you
I can go nowhere I burn candles and stare At a ghost deep inside of you
And some great need in me Starts to bleed I've lost myself, there's nothing left It's all gone Deep inside of you Deep inside of you Deep inside of you
our accountant who joined us barely 2 years ago and who's actually flourishing in her job just told us she'll be leaving us soon after she got her US tourist visa.
it was a bit shocking for us as we knew about the interview appointment a few days before her schedule and a couple more days later we found out she actually got approved of a 10-year multiple entry visa along with her 4-year old daughter. she is however bent on going there and applying for a caregiver job and hopes to get proper documents along the way, hopefully.
much as we are all happy with her seemingly good fortune, especially since we all know how hard it is to apply for a US visa this days, we are a bit sad that she'll be leaving us. and actually scared of what might happen to her there.
ironically, our little organization has been dealing with caring for migrate workers as part of its apostolate services. my boss along with his staff has been travelling country after country seeking for all those documented and illegal OFWs alike for counseling and consultations or at least mere interactions. they are also into training would-be volunteer counselors who could help reach out to fellow Pinoys abroad.
although it is no longer my turf, i have also been exposed to these endeavors in our trips abroad. and i have heard just so many sob stories i could listen to in one sitting. i have learned and seen for myself that working abroad is never the ultimate heaven. yes, one would get enthralled at seeing how progressive these foreign countries are, and how efficient everything seems to be. but after a while, once you've finally soaked up the new atmosphere everything would just turn bleh and one can't help but miss the familiarity of home once more. of course, this is just me talking about a two-week at the most stay in some foreign land.
i have been presented with countless opportunities to try my luck out abroad but i've not been that enthusiastic about it. oh yeah, i've toyed with the idea of applying for a tourist visa and take odd jobs but i can never be a caregiver as i don't really care...nor can i be a waitress as i'm not so good with waiting. hehe..seriously, i'm not the kind of person who could ever risk legalities if only for me to work for a "better" life.
and i believe it is also related with the fact that I have already been denied of a visa once when i was supposed to be sent for an area assignment. i am never good with rejections and i was ultimately pissed with how America has not given me entry to their country when i was supposed to be on a noble mission. no wonder people will just risk all they can, leave legalities at the door once they've been approved in spite of their shady plans. and terrorists still get to infiltrate them, how's that for "great" judgment eh...haha ang bitter!
disclaimer: of course, it still does not mean that i'm closing my doors for a US trip, after all it's still one of my dream destination at least before i get too old and arthritic to take on the cold.
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amidst all these talks, we are currently working on opening a new category for our awards project which we have now billed us brain gain or bayaning balik lingkod. recipients of this recognition will have to be professionals who have stayed and worked abroad for a significant period of time and has now chosen to come back to the country and offer their services for the local community development. i am still working on the qualifications and the specific criteria but generally they would have to have an identifiable skill and is currently involved in a noteworthy and outstanding project/s serving a good number of beneficiaries.
sigh. everything is still so vague. i'm still having quite a hard time particularly in quantifying and measuring the nobility of their coming back home for good. and i will still have to hook up with the right agencies for my data gathering and networking. so help me God, and dear readers of this blog.
just a while ago, my boss approached me to tell me to try to talk some sense into our accountant and advise her to just file for a leave of absence, try her luck in the US for a few months and just come back if only to pave for a cleaner travel record. he told me he doesn't want to do it himself as he's been too tired trying to dissuade people from working illegally abroad which is what he's been doing for several decades now for his apostolate work. oh well, malalaki na sila, kaya na naman siguro nila mga sarili nila.
i'm at peace. and i just want to relish every single moment of it.
i still have a lot of concerns to take care of but gladly they are not enough to overpower this immense feeling of peace and contentment that's emanating my being right at this very moment.
i'm supposed to join a group of friends today for some saturday night fun but due to some circumstances brought about by my own carelessness, i could not. i was a bit restless having to stay here all weekend long but i realize there's really nothing much to worry about.
my friends will always be there anyway. and there's still the fun, fun summer we could all look forward to in the days to come. yey!
and also, i'm expecting to move on soon. yup, not move out as where i am is but a transitory place for me. i've been overstaying in fact and i just know that it's about time that i finally get back on my own two feet again.
and though the prospect of having to pay more bills, of not having a 24-hour internet connection, phone line, and being in a new neighborhood may all seem daunting, i am actually looking forward to this new adventure.
yeah, let's just enjoy life and never lose that sense of wonder in everything that we encounter.
and oh, i've been listening heavily to smashing pumpkins, third eye blind and dashboard confessional lately as though time is counting down fast, i do miss you immensely every single day.
I don't really know how to tell you this, but our romance is over. I think I realized it that night under a state of trance and I saw you sit at my mustard soufflé.
I'm sure you're masochistic enough to understand that Santa doesn't’t exist.
I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your suicide note as a memory. You should also know that I will tell the authorities about your embarrassing rash. Go drown yourself.
-marinela-
Why don't you try it out too!
Dear (the person who last texted/smsed you),
I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ____2_ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___.
I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___.
I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.
___12___, -Your name-
1. What's the color of your shirt? Blue - Our romance is over Red - Our affair is over White - I'll join the monastery Black - I dislike you Green - Our horoscope doesn't't match Grey - You're a pervert Yellow - I'm selling myself Pink - Your nostrils are insulting Brown - The mafia wants you No shirt - You're a loser Other - I'm in love with your sister
2. Which is your birth month? January - That night February - Last year March - When your dwarf bit me April - When I tripped on sesame seeds May - First of May June - When you put cuffs on me July - When I threw up August - When I saw the shrunken head September - When we skinny dipped October - When I quoted Santa November - When your dog ran amok December - When I changed tennis shoes
3. Which food do you prefer? Tacos - In your apartment Pizza - In your camping car Pasta - Outside of Chicago Hamburgers - Under the bus Salad - As you ate enchilada Chicken - In your closet Kebab - With Paris Hilton Fish - In women's clothing Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation Lasagna - At the mental hospital Hot dog - Under a state of trance Annat; With George Bush and his wife
4. What's the color of your socks? Yellow - Hit on Red - Insult Black - Ignore Blue - Knock out Purple - Pour syrup on White - Carve your initials into Grey - Pull the clothes off Brown - Put leeches on Orange - Castrate Pink - Pull the toupee off Barefoot - Sit at Other - Drive out
5. What's the color of your underwear? Black - My best friend White - My father Grey - Bill Clinton Brown - My fart balloon Purple - My mustard soufflé Red - Donald Duck Blue - My avocado plant Yellow - My penpal in Ghana Orange - My Kid Rock-collection Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper None - My John F. Kennedy-statue Other - The crazy monk
6. What do you prefer to watch on TV? Scrubs; Man O.C.; Emotional One Tree Hill; Open Heroes; Frostbitten Lost; High House; Scarred Simpsons; Cowardly The news; Mongolic Idol; Masochistic Family Guy; Senile Top Model; Middle-class Annat; Ashamed
7. Your mood right now? Happy - How awful I've felt Sad - How boring you are Bored - That Santa doesn't't exist Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage Depressed - That we're cousins Excited - That there is no solution to this. Nervous - The middle-east Worried - That your Honda sucks Apathetic - That I did a sex-change Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men Overjoyous - That I'm open Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks
8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom? White - Your ring Yellow - Your love letters Red - Your Darth Vader-poster Black - Your tame stone Blue - The couch cushions Green - The pictures from LA Orange - Your false teeth Brown - Your contact book Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs Purple - Your old lottery coupons Pink - The cut toenails Other - Your memories from the military service
9. The first letter of your first name? A/B - Your photo C/D - The oil stocks E/F - Your neighbour Martin G/H - My virginity I/J - The results of blood-sample K/L - Your left ear M/N - Your suicide note O/P - My common sense Q/R - Your mom S/T - Your collection of butterflies U/V - Your criminal record W/X - David's tricot outfits Y/Z - Your grades from college
10. The last letter in your last name? A/B - Always will remember C/D - Never will forget E/F - Always wanted to break G/H - Never openly mocked I/J - Always have felt dirty before K/L - Will tell the authorities about M/N - Told in my confession today about O/P - Was interviewed by Abante Tonight about Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about S/T - Get sick when I think of U/V - Always will try to forget W/X - Am better off without Y/Z - Never liked
11. What do you prefer to drink? Water- Our friendship Beer - Senility Soft drink - A new life as a clone Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo Milk - The apartment building Wine - Cocaine abuse Cider - A passionate interest for mice Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations Mineral water - Your embarrassing rash Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism Whisky - To ruin the second world war Other - To hate the Boston Celtics
12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation? Thailand - Warm regards USA - Best regards England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail Spain - Go and drown yourself China - Disgusting regards Germany - With ease Japan - Go burn Greece - Your everlasting enemy Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard Egypt - Fuck off now France - In pain Other - Greetings to your freaky family
i don't want to sound so exaggerated but this movie is just so brilliant. i was actually cursing ala claudine barretto on most parts of the film most especially on its last 4 minutes. and almost felt sad that it has actually ended. oh well...
this is my second keri russell film for the week. the waitress which i saw a couple of days ago was also really heartwarming. i'm beginning to discover how lovely keri russell is.
august rush is a highly musical film marrying classical and rock and bearing some streetbeat protege of a son. true to its title, watching it does give you that kind of rush, some high brought on not only by the power of music but also with how love is able to transcend time and distances apart. and yeah, i've to say freddie highmore is just becoming a handsome fine young man.
"You never quit on your music. No matter what happens. Cuz anytime something bad happens to you, that's the one place you can escape to and just let it go. I learned it the hard way. And anyway, look at me. Nothing bad's gonna happen. You gotta have a little faith. "
. hehe..seriously, i'm not the kind of person who could ever risk legalities if only for me to work for a 
