Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Stardust will soon be out!!!

i'm talkin about my fave sci-novel of all time written by who else but Neil Gaiman!!! i just learned that the movie adaptation will soon come out headed by great stars like robert de niro, michelle pfeifer, claire daines, etc!

whoa, i can't wait for august 10!!!!!

more infos about the film can be found here!

Friday, March 23, 2007

swift but sweet...

i got to go home to iligan for a few days last week...particularly mar. 17 to 21...my sis arrived from NY and she was to attend the graduation of her unica hija, Mai and my other niece Bb...twas indeed a grand time for celebrations as my mom celebrated her 64th birthday on the 20th...

we arrived early am that 17th and the family (yes, the entire family, all 12 of them!) was already set in welcoming us at the CdO airport. my sis and i though was more excited in seeing my 1 year old son. whoa! i haven't really seen him in almost 2 months! we just got to the airport and i was already scouring my son amongst the crowd. of course it was not so hard spotting him with his frowning looks perched on my bros shoulders. he still had the ultra creamy skin and chubby, chubby cheeks. weeh!! i couldn't quite help myself but run to get him. :D

my bro happened to have received his bonus composed of SM gift cetificates which he distributed to us all. twas indeed a great time for shopping and strolling. and yeah, running after Xan who just wanted to walk all around SM with his quick lil feet. we would take turns carrying him yet i still had muscle pains all over at the end of that day. sigh.

the next day, the 18th, we prepared for the graduation ceremonies. we were at the salon and had our hair done when a kid selling ponkan oranges gave us tips for swertres or the 3-digit lotto. i placed a bet on the numbers and won 1500 the next day hahahah!

we trooped to the school gym later that day, took pics and enjoyed the ceremony. we had food prepared at home, invited our relatives and friends and as always enjoyed the celebration.
wow, congrats to our nieces!!!

the following day, the 19th, i stayed home and played with Xan all day long. such bliss! i also got to clean my pc with all the unecessary files that forever gave me a low disk space alert....later that night we went on with a drinking spree at home with my mom giving Xan a sip of vodka cruiser hahaha! forgive us, Xan actually felt the effects of alcohol as he swayed around the room, giggled and squealed, laid down then closed his eyes and slept soundly till almost noon the next day...

on the 20th, we once again prepared for my Mom's birthday party...actually, twas more just my mom doing the cooking and the preparations of the food as we hover around to taste her dishes hehe...my bro brought shrimps and crabs from zamboanga so we had a lot of seafoods to feast on again wow!!
more of her friends and our relatives pored in and partied with us again. Xan was just too delighted with the crowd he has gotten used to facing our guests, smiling and making cutesy faces at them. people would ask my mom her age and she would gladly say she's 64!! they would ask the secret to her youthful aura and i would vehemently reply, "it's Xan" hehehe...true enough, Xan has been a true blessing to our home bleh!
before the night ended we we're finally able to gather the entire family and took a complete family pic...so here we are, the royal familia MIRASOL!

the following day, the 21st, i had to finally leave early again to catch my early am flight back to manila...back to reality...well, swift but sweet indeed!

Thursday, March 22, 2007

ym woes...

i know i owe giving more time to this blog a lot...i've been busy the past days...just got back from my 4 day trip to iligan...i've a lot to share...and my emotions are at an all time high...i don't think i can elaborate on that though hehehe...


i dunno what happened, i'm on auto log in in this pc...grrr! and i was able to use it last night. argh!!

i don't really mind the ym part as i could just easily contact my close friends (and get rid of the not so close ones hehe) but my emails??WTF!! my address book!!

i just created a new one...i still dunno how to retrieve infos in my old one.

gawd, it's like bein evicted from my own home for years without any fair warning at all. i'm gonna have to start from scratch now. :mecry:

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

mommyhood becomes me...

(this is a repost from my entry for momexchange)

"i just came from my OB, i am 12 wiks preg. am sori but i've never felt this hapi b4."

i remembered that was how i texted my sister and my bestfriend the news. i have just came from the OB then for my check up. i was sitting at dunkin donuts near world citi i could almost feel the tears welling up. i was happy. i've never felt such joy. and though they did not even know i was with someone then they both responded favorably. my sis asked me at once as to whether i wanted her to tell my mom or i could just tell her myself. my bestfriend only told me she's happy for me and to take care of myself. and to come home soon. home where i could be well taken care of with my delicate condition.

this was almost two years ago, i was 29. i remembered i was telling my high school friends then how i'd have a child by the time i was 30 married or not. i guess i was just so heartbroken then and felt i am a hopeless case as far as succesful love stories are concerned. they all pretty laughed about it and called me too independent and even selfish. why would anyone wants to bring a child into this cruel world alone anyway? but here i was anyway, pregnant and single.

though i was with a guy, yeah, he's not just some guy i picked up in the bar or along the streets hehe...we had something, i was happy with him. i almost felt like i could actually live with him for the rest of my life. but ewww, time passed and i realized there's no point staying and making it work....

i went on with carrying my son. of course, the next trimester was not so good. i would throw up morning, noon and night. worse, i wasn't able to tell my officemates then. my mom flew in at once and asked me how i was. she didn't ask me for anything nor my plans. she just wanted me to go home. i insisted to stay though as i still have to work.

when i finally told my boss, who happens to be a priest, he just asked me how i am and if i needed any help, counseling or any emotional support. all i asked was for him to support me. my officemates hugged me and was happy for me. except for those a few who chose to talk behind my back though. normal na yun, after all, some people couldn't really wait to bring us down.

i would read up on the internet a lot as i was counting the days. i remembered i even had to travel then for work but i welcomed each challenge. i was on my 5th month when i went to cotabato to do some interviews. was on my 6th when i flew to legazpi for research. i remembered i couldn't take anything beef and pork. i didn't have any particular cravings. i just wanted to watch game ka na ba everyday hahahaha!!! no wonder!

i went home to iligan on my 8th month in time for the xmas break. my mom flew in again to accompany me home. i was almost denied passage at the airport good thing mom was there to assure them i'd be alright and it would be best i come home soon.

my preggy days in iligan would have to be the best. my nieces and my nephews would camp around me and feel my tummy. and how they'd giggle when my baby starts moving and poking his knees or elbows maybe. and how he would stir up when they would sing him "my humps, my humps!" hahahaha. and they would text me every single day if i wanted to walk around the city for my exercise. my baby wasn't born yet but our home was already filled with laughter and anticipation.

oh well, xan is indeed in this world now. not just bringing laughters but chaos and bewilderment, shrieking and wreaking havoc everywhere. he's still my little precious. and he's growing to be a cutesy, more adorable, soo kulit baby each day. me on the other hand have never felt this blessed. true, i still have those dark episodes sometimes, which i would indulge in anyway...i still am able to come off it pretty well as soon as i've stared at my son's wonderful features.

motherhood is indeed a bliss no matter how hard the circumstances you've come through just by bringing him into this world. true, so true. :D

Sunday, March 11, 2007

headbangin with Miller's 300

the movie is indeed a feast for the senses. not just with it's stunning visuals but more so because of the hardrock musical scoring. grrrr, can't help but almost wanting to bang my head as the warriors head on to battle. i swear, i really think trent reznor, eddie vedder and even creed's scott stapp should have been one of those spartans!

Thursday, March 08, 2007


come to me...calm me
comfort me from all these storms

am drownin. am suffocating.
hear me. tear me up.

i need peace
i want pieces of me back.

help me..let me
feel what it is to live again.

fill me. feel me.

Sunday, March 04, 2007

ateneo blues

yeah, i've lived here inside the campus since time immemorial. never left actually. but then i've stayed away from the college for a while now. my life then in the ateneo seemed too distant just the same.

however, i got to reminisce my old days when i met my long lost friend KF this weekend. i agreed to tour him around the college, technically though we toured it together as i've never really visited our spots again in a long time.

we started off walkin along edsa walk and searched for our org corkboard, unfortunaly we didn't see much posters, not that many activities huh?

then we went lookin for our org room, drat the old building where we used to hang out is no longer the old dilapidated one instead there stood this fancy, fancy building which we can't see ourselves runnin and lounging around tsk tsk...we even looked for our old maintenance guy, mang manny but we didn't find him anymore. but the new building though is now named after him, yun nga lang Manny Pangilinan hahahah!!!

from there we went to the Church of the Gesu and stood in awe at the magnificent structure. KF though went lookin for the sword supposedly held by the Sacred Heart statue of Jesus *boink-boink*!!! patience, patience my dears. :D

then we went to pollock and looked at the magnificent view overlooking marikina. i remembered having watched the moonrise there over the valley. there we sat for a while and caught up on things. i really missed those conversations. even the meaningful silences shared. i believe we do need that deep conversations once in a while. it does pay to have a friend who knows you and who can get you and would care listenin to you rants and all.

from there we went to the back of faura building, another fave spot. too bad the sun was out already. we used to get a good view of the sunset then. there are tall buildings now blocking the view though. sigh.

sa likod ng ng faura, it's there where we used to stare at the people outside. marvelling at how busy their lives are as they rush from one destination to another. we used to create stories about people in the cars passing by. at the same time we would reflect on our lives. how distant we are from them. it's like bein on a fishbowl. inside the ateneo everythin is safe, controlled, warm.

we must have stayed there for hours. talking and not talking. after all, as padre ferriols would have said pag nasasabi mo na ang lahat ng nasabi, ang pinaka importante pa din ay ang hindi nasasabi.

we left the campus kinda sad but happy still. a lot have indeed changed but vestiges of the home we once knew remained. what matters most anyway are the memories, the laughters, the hurts, all the shouting when things weren't so good and the making up when circumstances were better understood. and most of all, realizing that there is always a home you could come home to, and a friend who could hold your hand till the end.

tnx KF!

Saturday, March 03, 2007

admu survey

got this from kai's blog which she got from mcoy's blog ;)
X -- things you've done

( x ) eat at Manang's
( x ) learn the alma mater song
( ) get on the dean's list
( x ) sleep on a bench (floor, on or under a faura lab table, soccer field...)
( ) be a TNT! (was always apathetic eh :p)
( x ) jog around the campus in the evening
( x ) visit the art gallery
( x ) know at least one xerox lady, manong, or technician by name (si mang manny ng colayco)
( x ) get a Jesuit for a teacher (fr dacanay, fr. gorospe, fr. bulatao)
( x ) itch from higad bites (yeah, had my own share of higad moments too)
(x ) have gotten an F in something (haay, chem...montecastro beybi hmp!)
( ) have taken a crap in school
( x ) watch a La Salle vs. Ateneo UAAP game (yeah, never saw a won game though, ako ata jinx eh)
( x ) give a powerpoint presentation
( ) study in the caf upstairs (di ko naabutan)
( x ) watch a T.A. play (and Entablado and Blue Rep)
( ) sit on the SEC ledge and watch the stars (bago pa lang ang SEC on my last year)
( x ) eat in Full House, Martha's Kitchen, and Ken Afford
( x ) sleep in the lib
( ) visit Mr. San Andres (oh, cutie but di kami close e hehe)
( x ) go to the chapel
( x ) have gotten a pebble stuck in your shoe/slippers in the middle of the quad
( ) cut class with your block to watch a movie (did cut class for a movie but not with my block)
( x ) sign up for those institutional (i.e. difficult but brilliant) teachers
( x ) go to CERSA night (the jesuit priests, beni santos, danton remoto)
( ) have tried siomai rice
(x ) learn how to smoke (masarap gawin esp pag nag field malamig at malamok eh)
( x ) fall in love (hahahaha)
( x ) actually read the book you keep borrowing from the lib
( x ) play cards during your free time (pusoy dos, tong-its)
( x ) dress in business attire (thesis defense, group reports/oral exams)
( x ) learn to stay awake for more than 24 hours straight (lecheng free coffee refills ng mcdo yan!!! )
( ) have gotten side comments from ASSOC
( ) take (and enjoy) Saturday classes (never had saturday classes woo-hoo!!)
( x ) go to your immersion (bakasyon yun! balayan, batangas :D)
( x ) eat Food for Thought sandwiches (miss it too)
( x) get a boyfriend (just one, good grrr eh)
( x ) take time to read the vandalism in the CR doors
( x ) watch `Minsan Lang Sila Bata` for class (and wept)
( x ) do a last minute paper (am a talented crammer after all)
( ) have spent a lot for 1x1 ID pictures
( ) get exempted from final exams (don't remember haha!)
( x ) attend a college mass
(x ) promise to quit smoking (always! i managed though)
( ) play hide-and-seek in the mini-forest
( x ) know where the best restrooms are on campus (sa lhs overlooking kse ng marikina!)
( x ) join an org (make that orgs)
( x ) allow yourself to make mistakes
( x ) take summer classes (once lang GD with ms. lolarga, the lion queen haha)
( x ) admire the sacred heart statue in the evening
( x ) make a video for a project
( x ) have a crush on a teacher (thirdy forever!)
( x ) attend a Jesuit retreat (8-day silent retreat at mirador hill, baguio. )
( ) have gotten a parking ticket
( x ) come to school in your crappiest yet most comfy clothes
( ) learn how to use the Bayantel pay phones
( x ) participate in school activities
( ) catch the Blue Babble Battalion tryouts
( x ) date an Atenean
( x ) ride a tricycle on campus (pag tinatamad. otherwise, i love to walk)
( x ) find a tambayan (likod ng faura, field, GR colayco)
( x ) admire the marikina valley at night
( x ) go drinking along Katipunan (till now!)
( ) learn how to beg for a higher grade
( ) use your cuts wisely (didn't really care!)
( ) volunteer to be class beadle
( x) had the worst lottery schedule for reg (lagi namna eh! kaya i had the most interesting PE classes: swimming, fencing, weight training hehe)
( x ) admire the trees on campus
( ) have forgotten about your freecut and gone to that class (forget a freecut? are you kidding?!)
( x ) eat in the ISO canteen (till now)
( x ) be active in your org
( ) have signed up on an ACP class just because the girl or guy u like signed up for it
( ) get as many app forms as you can during the job fair
( x ) learn how to cram
( ) sell tickets (or watch) an org-sponsored movie premiere
( ) save money to Xerox all of your seatmate's notes
( x) have accidentally seen a make-out session (who could ever forget the ASG couple??!!)
( x ) check out the Meron Lagoon and Lambingan Bridge (hahaha)
( ) have dozed off in class in Bel right after a class in CTC/SOM/Comm. Bldg or vice versa (dozed off in class, yes)
( x ) learn how to work with groupmates from hell
( ) perfect the art of parking on campus
( x) had a bad encounter with one of the guards on campus (ssshhh!)
( ) develop a love for sisig (don't eat sisig)
( x ) learn how to pronounce `AEGIS` properly
( ) have used typing rooms at the library
( x ) have reserved a classroom, AVR, etc. for a class or org function
( ) have asked the library for an endorsement to research in other libraries
( x ) have lost a perfectly functioning umbrella (make that umbrellas)
( ) have used consultation hours properly
( x ) Looked forward to lab breakage refund, in case you didn't break any equipment
( x ) visit the Guidance Office (nagpapalamig basically)
( x ) and Infirmary (free paracetamol nga naman; nagpapalamig din)
( ) peed on the konyo bench
( x ) watched the sunset from the gate 2/3 field
( x ) spent night at gate 2/3 field (nagpuslit pa ng alcohol hehehe)
( x ) took the Barangka steps at least once
( x) hung out at the Doghouse and actually felt superior to everyone (late night na yun hahaha)
( ) drank the water from the rizal-era pipes
( x ) referred to classes between 1:30 and 3:30 as "siesta time"
( x ) played in the rain, with your friends (and ate aratiles too)

waah, i miss the good old days!!!

I've been TAGGED!!

oh, i've been tagged by mars so here's my own set of 5 crazy things about me. five lang talaga??tsk tsk...

1. whenever i eat or drink i always leave some 'for the devil' whether it's coffee, juice, food even water. hmmm... i dunno why really.

2. i become more peaceful and calm when i'm listening to hard rock, loud music. i guess it just brings out all the pent up emotions in me and i'd be comforted by the vocalist who sing his lungs out. "they keep calling me, keep on calling me!!!!"

3. i used to be able to stay up and study well after a bottle of beer. one bottle can liven me up, two-four is ok...and id be up rather early than usual once i've had a few drinks.

4. i used to own a red wardrobe. i had red shirts, red shorts even red jeans. now am so much into purple...purple undies are really sexy. ;;)

5. i love Before Sunset so much i watched it alone at the movies. and i'd still watch it over and over again now. and i've even downloaded the script and memorised some of the lines. "Life's hard. It's supposed to be. If we didn't suffer, we'd never learn anything."

haay, 5 lang talaga....

newei, i'm tagging:

1. rashiko..kse makulit sya and am sure he'd want to do this ;)

2. mommy peeya...because i know she's weird and i'd like to learn more weird things about her.

3. my bestfriend sugar, she's kinda conventional. i'd like her to admit to something weird har-har!

4. my sister guia, i wanna be surprised!

5. Mang Max! kse i wanna know more about him.

other people who wanna get tagged can join in too ;) it's a freakin free country!!!

Friday, March 02, 2007

Who I am...5 years ago.

our college annual came out a tad bit delayed. was told that a lot of pictures and files we're lost and am glad mine was intact. but it kinda feels different reading my write up again. a good old friend wrote this for me. i guess that he's the only one who actually knew me inside out...it's been like a lot of years since i saw him last and am just glad i found him again now. newei, here's what he wrote then...nah am not posting my college pic :p

AN ENIGMA? Too exaggerated. MYSTERIOUS? Too cliché. How do you capture such an elusive person as she is down on paper? Lang, as she is fondly called, leads an alternative lifestyle. Neither one of asceticism nor single-blessedness, nor any of that sort. Lang is a vibrant mix of interest and characteristic that make up the kaleidoscope that she is.
Form head to toe, she is a fashion statement on her own. Ethnic designs to solid pastel colors grace her petite frame. Her height is surely not a hindrance for her to have a noticeable figure, a product of the regular laps in the pool during afternoons. She is Sleeping Beauty come to life, for she uses her free time in school to go back to the boarding house to dream of who knows what! Songs by Radiohead, Smashing Pumpkins, and Tori Amos find their way into her Top Ten lists for the music scene.
This preference for rock and alternative music is a far cry from the silent and lethargic disposition she usually carries. A disposition that is sometimes mistaken as snobbish cynicism is actually a reflection of deep thought and contemplation. If she is not hanging out in or around the premises of the Gabay room, you can find her sitting( but most of the time lying) in the solitude of the green blanket of the football field, admiring the ever-changing beauty of sunset or the glistening displays of the stars in the night sky. It is here where most of her reflections on people and life play with the dancing hues of the setting sun or the sparkles of the stars beyond. And if you have any luck, they all get to play with yours. Nevertheless, she is always sucker for attention and pampering from those close to her. Finally, to a valued few, she will always be the bunso that she is. KF

so do you think this is still me now???