Friday, April 25, 2008


thanks to mommy haze who gave me this link about some nivea online contest which i just answered on one of my lull moments. as i did get the prize yi-ha! the funny thing is i couldn't access the website anymore when it was where i got to answer the promo quiz in the first place. if i remember well, we only had to submit a picture of a celebrity that we look up to and justify on what makes that celebrity impressionable. i sent a very much preggy photo of Heidi Klum for not only being a supermodel but a supermom and a super wifey to Seal as well. with that i got these!:

from their Summit office, i search the stores again for my ever elusive itim na balde hehehe...but to no avail still. so i boarded the bus and hopped off at the nepa Q mart and lo and behold there was an array of baldes in all colors and sizes and with black ones of course. and it was sold for only fifty pesos hahaha! so here it is finally!

and these are its bathmates

i also got a few rugs for 20 pesos a piece and a curtain set for 180 pesos. i'll definitely go back there for more of my houseware needs. yey!


i've gotten the bug once more. i've been sniffing and sneezing for a few days now and my head is just so heavy to carry around. if only i could take it off sometimes and leave it someplace for a while eh.

i blame it all on the heat and the dust and those endless trips to the malls for stuff for my little home. i've been to megamall twice, to shopwise and sm cubao. and sm city then walked all the way to trinoma only to find myself boarding the mrt to get me to ortigas megamall once more.

i've long been searching for a black balde hehehe.

why black? because i just got myself a black soapdish, small basin and a tabo. and i remember texting my sister to bring me a black towel set as well. hehe..sorry, i've pictured out what my bathroom's gonna look like so i can't just get a pail of any color and "destroy" the effect all together.

oh well, the excitement must have made so tired i had to rest a couple of days with my sniffles.

and while on this i got news that most of my products needed for our area promotions might be delayed meaning our trips will be delayed too.

yes, i've got some vested interest that i got really sad i might not be able to hit the beach (on a sidetrip) sooner than i planned.

haay, just the same, i still like to say see you real soon, bantayan!

i just signed up for payperpost!

I have always loved to blog and read about other people’s blogs not just from my own country but from other places as well. I was talking about it to a friend when he said I could actually earn from blogging too. Of course, with how economy has dwindled these days I can’t help but not pass up the chance of earning while enjoying what I do, blogging!

He led me to sign up with payperpost as this has been a proven and reliable site for earning through blogs. It allows me to post about a chosen blog advertising
and inform more people about it. This is yet my first post and I am really excited and looking forward to composing and advertising for other people, making them read more about my blogposts and earning at the same time. How cool can that be?

I am really hoping that more and more people could sign up and earn as well. The earnings that I could get could help in alleviating my lifestyle by paying for my bills and other expenses. And slowly but surely it could help me upgrade my computer system as well for better uploads and faster internet services. I am truly looking forward to more good times ahead with payperpost. And I am so grateful for having signed up.

Saturday, April 19, 2008


i was leafing through my old college files when i chanced upon this paper. it's actually some agreement between us girls, cherry, claudine, tina and ate tech against two guys kuya theo and kuya ac, all my orgmates from gabay betting on the then much talked about soon to be wedding of Kris Aquino and Philip Salvador. of course no wedding ever took place and we won our much sought after iced tea from the college caf.

those were the days haha!

What Marinela Means

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.

You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.

You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

Thursday, April 17, 2008

this big breakfast meal is the bomb!

and i mean big! for P110 this already has a mini pancake, scrambled/sunny side up egg, beef tapa and a hotdog plus a cup of rice and your choice of coffee or juice.

i'm having the pancakes and the eggs for breakfast and the rest for lunch.

oh by the way, it's from jollibee! just call 8-7000 for delivery. breakfast delivery is up to 11am only.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

AI Update: The Guys Outsang the Girls on Mariah Week!

i'm no big fan of mariah thus i imagine the girls belting and screaming out this week. surprise of all surprises though, t'was the guys who actually did well. archuleta was good but cook and castro were my favorites most especially since they sang my better favored songs by mariah :p

i'm especially dedicating cook's video to my former abada housemate,
kaye ursolino...siya naalala ko agad eh haha!

and castro's all mine hehehe....

Sunday, April 13, 2008

gone but will never be forgotten

i've always been mercurial when i'm PMSing (sorry TMI, guys!), i could be ecstatic now and just downright depressed in a few moments.

i woke up feeling alright, i felt light and raring to work or watch a movie or just do about anything i want to do. i'm planning out things, i'm preparing my sched for the next months and i'm just so excited with finally being able to go where i want to go this summer. i was alright.

then while browsing through the different threads in pex, i chanced upon this thread and browsed through. and i realized i shouldn't have most especially after reading this poem:

Funeral Blues
W.H Auden

Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

I first heard of this in the movie Four Weddings and a Funeral. I've somehow forgotten what the movie is all about but reading this poem once again just made me really, really sad. Because i happen to have used this in my journal years back when my dad passed away.

and i suddenly miss him so much.

and i remember it was his birthday last april 5 and i totally forgot about it.

i remember struggling too long for most of my college life blaming myself for being such a bad daughter. he was sick for a long, long time and i remember fleeing from reality for most of the time then. for i preferred immersing myself with activities in school and being with my friends rather than being by his side where he needed me most.

i practically grew up having him around. i used to sleep beside him as a kid. i used to wait for him after work for our daily walks till the sun sets. i used to wait up for him if only to report whoever kid fought with me that day no matter how trivial the fight was. i would already be crying even before i could tell him who and why i got hurt.

when he got sick, was in and out of the hospital, became bedridden for almost 10 years it was just my mom who took care of him. i went away for most of the time. i didn't want to see him sick and weak and unable to talk even. it broke my young heart seeing him just slowly slipping away.

when he passed away just right after my 18th birthday i was away from home. i wasn't able to go home that christmas break thus i wasn't even able to greet him that one last time.

a lot in me changed since then. i've always been so insecure. i've always felt so remorseful. and i never had any decent interest for any guy as i didn't really want to be close to anyone if only to see them leave once again.

it was only during my senior year, during my college retreat when i was finally processed by our spiritual director. all those years of blaming myself, of being sorry and regretful for not having been with him for a long time before he finally left was finally poured out. and i somehow made peace with him and myself.

but i still have these bouts once in a while.

there is always this fear of being left behind.

but i have learned to just appreciate, make the most of what i got and just be grateful for any wonderful relationships that come my way.

which reminds me of one other song which i find really beautiful but sad too. i'm just really hoping and praying that i won't ever have the need for these type of songs anymore:

Deep Inside of You
Third Eye Blind

When we met, light was shed
Thoughts free flow
You said you've got something
Deep inside of you

A wind chime voice sound
Sway of your hips round rings true
It goes deep inside of you

These secret garden beams
Changed my life, so it seems
A fall breeze blows outside
I don't break stride, my thoughts are warm
And they go deep inside of you
Oh yeah

And I never felt alone, alright
Oh oh, till I met you

Friends say I've changed
I don't listen 'cuz I live to be
Deep inside of you

Slide of her dress
Shouts in darkness, I'm so alive
I'm deep inside of you

You said, "boy make girl feel good"
But still, deep inside

I've never felt alone
Till I met you
I'm alright on my own
And then I met you
And I'd know what to do
If I just knew what's coming

I would change myself if I could
I'd walk with my people if I could find them
And I'd say that I'm sorry to you
I'm sorry to you

And I don't want to call you
But then I want to call you
'Cuz I don't want to crush you
But I feel like crushing you, and it's true
I took for granted you were with me
I breathe by your looks and you look right through me

But we were broke and didn't know
We were broke and didn't know
We were broke and didn't know
We were broke and didn't know

Something's gone, you withdraw
And I'm not strong like before
I was deep inside of you

I can go nowhere
I burn candles and stare
At a ghost deep inside of you

And some great need in me
Starts to bleed
I've lost myself, there's nothing left
It's all gone
Deep inside of you
Deep inside of you
Deep inside of you

Friday, April 11, 2008

brain drain/brain gain

our accountant who joined us barely 2 years ago and who's actually flourishing in her job just told us she'll be leaving us soon after she got her US tourist visa.

it was a bit shocking for us as we knew about the interview appointment a few days before her schedule and a couple more days later we found out she actually got approved of a 10-year multiple entry visa along with her 4-year old daughter. she is however bent on going there and applying for a caregiver job and hopes to get proper documents along the way, hopefully.

much as we are all happy with her seemingly good fortune, especially since we all know how hard it is to apply for a US visa this days, we are a bit sad that she'll be leaving us. and actually scared of what might happen to her there.

ironically, our little organization has been dealing with caring for migrate workers as part of its apostolate services. my boss along with his staff has been travelling country after country seeking for all those documented and illegal OFWs alike for counseling and consultations or at least mere interactions. they are also into training would-be volunteer counselors who could help reach out to fellow Pinoys abroad.

although it is no longer my turf, i have also been exposed to these endeavors in our trips abroad. and i have heard just so many sob stories i could listen to in one sitting. i have learned and seen for myself that working abroad is never the ultimate heaven. yes, one would get enthralled at seeing how progressive these foreign countries are, and how efficient everything seems to be. but after a while, once you've finally soaked up the new atmosphere everything would just turn bleh and one can't help but miss the familiarity of home once more. of course, this is just me talking about a two-week at the most stay in some foreign land.

i have been presented with countless opportunities to try my luck out abroad but i've not been that enthusiastic about it. oh yeah, i've toyed with the idea of applying for a tourist visa and take odd jobs but i can never be a caregiver as i don't really care...nor can i be a waitress as i'm not so good with waiting . hehe..seriously, i'm not the kind of person who could ever risk legalities if only for me to work for a "better" life.

and i believe it is also related with the fact that I have already been denied of a visa once when i was supposed to be sent for an area assignment. i am never good with rejections and i was ultimately pissed with how America has not given me entry to their country when i was supposed to be on a noble mission. no wonder people will just risk all they can, leave legalities at the door once they've been approved in spite of their shady plans. and terrorists still get to infiltrate them, how's that for "great" judgment eh...haha ang bitter!

disclaimer: of course, it still does not mean that i'm closing my doors for a US trip, after all it's still one of my dream destination at least before i get too old and arthritic to take on the cold.

amidst all these talks, we are currently working on opening a new category for our awards project which we have now billed us brain gain or bayaning balik lingkod. recipients of this recognition will have to be professionals who have stayed and worked abroad for a significant period of time and has now chosen to come back to the country and offer their services for the local community development. i am still working on the qualifications and the specific criteria but generally they would have to have an identifiable skill and is currently involved in a noteworthy and outstanding project/s serving a good number of beneficiaries.

sigh. everything is still so vague. i'm still having quite a hard time particularly in quantifying and measuring the nobility of their coming back home for good. and i will still have to hook up with the right agencies for my data gathering and networking. so help me God, and dear readers of this blog.


just a while ago, my boss approached me to tell me to try to talk some sense into our accountant and advise her to just file for a leave of absence, try her luck in the US for a few months and just come back if only to pave for a cleaner travel record. he told me he doesn't want to do it himself as he's been too tired trying to dissuade people from working illegally abroad which is what he's been doing for several decades now for his apostolate work. oh well, malalaki na sila, kaya na naman siguro nila mga sarili nila.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

on things not going on as planned...

...but it's really more on things that don't seem to go my way.

i'm getting itchy all over. i'm supposed to be somewhere already. i'm losing sleep over the things that i should have started doing. argh!

there's this excitement, this rush of thoughts that i'd want to finally take action on but i can't just yet all because i still need approvals.

i'm the kind of person who'd rarely ask for favors. much as i want to something is just holding me back.

but it's really more like my fear of being rejected.

turned down.


oh well..

i realized how i've been so used to some easy life that i tend to magnify all the little issues that come my way.

or i guess this is just me waking up on the wrong side of the bed.

Saturday, April 05, 2008

a semi-charmed life indeed

i'm at peace. and i just want to relish every single moment of it.

i still have a lot of concerns to take care of but gladly they are not enough to overpower this immense feeling of peace and contentment that's emanating my being right at this very moment.

i'm supposed to join a group of friends today for some saturday night fun but due to some circumstances brought about by my own carelessness, i could not. i was a bit restless having to stay here all weekend long but i realize there's really nothing much to worry about.

my friends will always be there anyway. and there's still the fun, fun summer we could all look forward to in the days to come. yey!

and also, i'm expecting to move on soon. yup, not move out as where i am is but a transitory place for me. i've been overstaying in fact and i just know that it's about time that i finally get back on my own two feet again.

and though the prospect of having to pay more bills, of not having a 24-hour internet connection, phone line, and being in a new neighborhood may all seem daunting, i am actually looking forward to this new adventure.

yeah, let's just enjoy life and never lose that sense of wonder in everything that we encounter.

and oh, i've been listening heavily to smashing pumpkins, third eye blind and dashboard confessional lately as though time is counting down fast, i do miss you immensely every single day.

talon talon weee!

Friday, April 04, 2008

Go drown yourself!

Copied this from Marky's blog.

Dear Andrea

I don't really know how to tell you this, but our romance is over. I think I realized it that night under a state of trance and I saw you sit at my mustard soufflé.

I'm sure you're masochistic enough to understand that Santa doesn't’t exist.

I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your suicide note as a memory.
You should also know that I will tell the authorities about your embarrassing rash.
Go drown yourself.


Why don't you try it out too!

Dear (the person who last texted/smsed you),

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ____2_ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___.

I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___.

I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory.
You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.

-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
Annat; With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit at
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs; Man
O.C.; Emotional
One Tree Hill; Open
Heroes; Frostbitten
Lost; High
House; Scarred
Simpsons; Cowardly
The news; Mongolic
Idol; Masochistic
Family Guy; Senile
Top Model; Middle-class
Annat; Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by Abante Tonight about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Your embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

Thursday, April 03, 2008

august rush

i don't want to sound so exaggerated but this movie is just so brilliant. i was actually cursing ala claudine barretto on most parts of the film most especially on its last 4 minutes. and almost felt sad that it has actually ended. oh well...

this is my second keri russell film for the week. the waitress which i saw a couple of days ago was also really heartwarming. i'm beginning to discover how lovely keri russell is.

august rush is a highly musical film marrying classical and rock and bearing some streetbeat protege of a son. true to its title, watching it does give you that kind of rush, some high brought on not only by the power of music but also with how love is able to transcend time and distances apart.
and yeah, i've to say freddie highmore is just becoming a handsome fine young man.

"You never quit on your music. No matter what happens. Cuz anytime something bad happens to you, that's the one place you can escape to and just let it go. I learned it the hard way. And anyway, look at me. Nothing bad's gonna happen. You gotta have a little faith. "