...and i don't know why.
...must be from reading all those mushy essays from youngblood 3 for the past couple of nights now.
...or maybe the fact that i have nightly parties starting tonight and i don't really feel like going save for those which i'll be with close friends.
...or maybe because i have yet to do my Christmas shopping and i haven't really bought a single gift for my family and my friends but then again i so hate squeezing myself unto crowded malls or tiangges or brave Manila traffic.
...is it because of the fact that nights are gettin colder as i jog each night and all i see are couples or at least old men with their dogs?
...i miss you and sometimes i'd ask myself if i do deserve missing you at all.
...i dunno. i've always hated Decembers here in Manila. i just know i need to get home pretty quick.
...i miss my mom. and am so looking forward to smelling her cooking back home.
...maybe i just need my most perfect drug...XAN.